kemaren malem dapet surprise night call dr seseorang yang udah lama gak kontekan, aneh sih ya menurut gue hahaha trsnya pake bilang kangen segala, oke mgkn dulu kita pernah deket tp tetep aja agak-agak rancu di gue nya hehehe
pas pagi, nyaris telat! untung mau masuk tolnya lancar, jd selamat lah saya :D
pas pulang sekolah dapet kabar yang gue gak enak banget dengernya, membuat hubungan gue dan Ivan bentrok. oke nyokapnya tau doi pacaran, selama perjalanan pulang, gue lemes banget udah kaya orang gak bertenaga, gak nyangka aja gitu
sumpah ya gue udah pasrah lemes banget
sempet nangis pula gue, udah bingung trsnya kita otp membicarakan masalah tsb, maka diputuskan lah gue sama dia VAKUM mau nangis tau gak sih yaAllah
kira-kira otp gue sama ivan gini
gue: jujur ya aku msh sayang sm kamu sm gamau pts
doi: iya aku juga sama, tp aku bingung yang
gue: ya aku juga, km mau lanjut apa putus?
doi: aku mau lanjut, tp takut ketauan
gue: ya jd gimana? kl mau lanjut ya resikonya emang gitu
doi: yaudah kita break dulu aja
shock lah gue disitu, pas bener td gue lagi manasin kolak *kalo di tv biasanya adegan shock pake ada acara gelas pecah lah, ada yang jatoh ato pecah deh pokoknya*
gue: ya terserah kamu
doi: jangan terserah aku dong
gue: binguuung akunya
setelah percakapan panjang, kita memutuskan untuk tetap melanjutkan hubungan tsb, dengan pelan-pelan dan secara halus. meskipun dia gak terima gakbisa sms dan nlf gue, you know what babyyyy i do feel the same way
tp mau gimana, gue udah pasrah banget ya bingung mau ngapain..
gue agak shock dia bilang 'maafin aku ya'
sejujurnya kamu gak pernah salah, mgkn iya aku cemburu km deket sm cewek-cewek. aku suka sepi aja, pgn sm kamu tp kamu nya selalu gak bisa..
P.S I love you huhu :""""""""""(
27.8.09
23.8.09
malem-malem gini emang enakan blogging ya, actually this post i wanna write in english. well so if my english is bad, i hope readers can understand, cause i still learning, and im a student hehehe
at 8, my mother, my brother and i went to xtrans, my brother wanna go to bandung again, he's in college now, he's a freshman. actually he's in sophomore year, but he start over again. so he now in freshman year. he bring my notebook, so now i write this all in his computer.
this night will be a quiet night, cause now im all alone, till my brotha come home. see? im strong enough, im old enough to not crying for unimportant reasons. did he know i miss him so, at times we like cat and dog, but it to proving we love each other, i try to not crying, im strong enough i know. i can through this all..
today im not fasting, you know the reason lah ya, girls' guest everymonth. actually, tomorrow i must go to school, but im lazyyyyyyyyyyyy oh every students must be lazy, tomorow IS MONDAY AND YOU KNOW WHAT I HATE MONDAY. its all because physics and deutchs, i can understand what my teacher said, but i cant reply her in deutch! why? idk! -_______-
am i too stupid or maybe i just cant? hh i hate deutch
and now ramadhan month, i try to be more patient and keep positive. i try to make this ramadhan more good than yesterday. maybe better i slept alone, but it feels like somethin lost.
and you know what, my foot is have a scar, -____-
painful -___-
feeling lonely, huhu
at 8, my mother, my brother and i went to xtrans, my brother wanna go to bandung again, he's in college now, he's a freshman. actually he's in sophomore year, but he start over again. so he now in freshman year. he bring my notebook, so now i write this all in his computer.
this night will be a quiet night, cause now im all alone, till my brotha come home. see? im strong enough, im old enough to not crying for unimportant reasons. did he know i miss him so, at times we like cat and dog, but it to proving we love each other, i try to not crying, im strong enough i know. i can through this all..
today im not fasting, you know the reason lah ya, girls' guest everymonth. actually, tomorrow i must go to school, but im lazyyyyyyyyyyyy oh every students must be lazy, tomorow IS MONDAY AND YOU KNOW WHAT I HATE MONDAY. its all because physics and deutchs, i can understand what my teacher said, but i cant reply her in deutch! why? idk! -_______-
am i too stupid or maybe i just cant? hh i hate deutch
and now ramadhan month, i try to be more patient and keep positive. i try to make this ramadhan more good than yesterday. maybe better i slept alone, but it feels like somethin lost.
and you know what, my foot is have a scar, -____-
painful -___-
feeling lonely, huhu
today
mungkin sedikit tumpahan kekesalan gue ya, gue puasa, tp tiba-tiba jam 2an ada 'tamu' alaaaah batal puasa gue sumpah ya emosiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii hhh dan akhirnya gue membatalkan puasa gue dengan memakan kue bantal sisa kemaren buka (dirumah gaada makanan) dan minum nu greentea, alaaaah maknyos siang-siang hot giduuuu ye kan hahahah
gue semaleman ol, terus jadinya abis sahur, subuh tidur lagi -,-
baru bangun jam 12an lewat diajakin nyokap ke superindo, jd gosok gigi dan shalat zuhur, abisan itu ke superindo, belanja dan segala macamnya, ke laundry, ambil cucian. dan pulang kerumah, beresin belanjaan, masak lah gue, akhirnya gue masak juga hehehehe
gue ngidam bikin spagghetti you know what, masak itu hal yang menyenangkan. kenapa cewek-cewek jaman sekarang males masak, heraaaaaan..
bagus tau masak itu, kita gak cuma bisa makan, tp bisa bikinnya juga. bumbu suka-suka, yang penting feeling aja :D
malem ini abang gue balik ke bandung, yaudahlah pasrah gue juga gamau nangisin, gue udah cukup dewasa untuk menghandle semuanya sendiri, gak ketergantungan sama abang gue gini. gak baik juga, dia gue tangisin gue jg gamau buat dia kepikiran gara-gara gue nangis juga yakan..
im mature enough to handle all of my problem. im mature enough to sleep alone, im mature enough to repairing my own computer..
next year im seventeen, it means im old enough to handling my own life..
this year i will 16. 16 almost mature, this mature means more stronger than when i was 15
hhh akhirnya buka, padahal gue gak puasa hehehe
ohyaaaa gue abisan potong poni kaya dora doooong, hasilnya besok kita lihat yaaa..
laptop gue mau dibawa abang ke bandung, kita tukeran gitu, sebenernya gue pewe sama ni laptop. enak banget dipake meskipun lemot, tp gimana ya, ya tetep aja cinta bet gue ama ini laptop hehehe
gue semaleman ol, terus jadinya abis sahur, subuh tidur lagi -,-
baru bangun jam 12an lewat diajakin nyokap ke superindo, jd gosok gigi dan shalat zuhur, abisan itu ke superindo, belanja dan segala macamnya, ke laundry, ambil cucian. dan pulang kerumah, beresin belanjaan, masak lah gue, akhirnya gue masak juga hehehehe
gue ngidam bikin spagghetti you know what, masak itu hal yang menyenangkan. kenapa cewek-cewek jaman sekarang males masak, heraaaaaan..
bagus tau masak itu, kita gak cuma bisa makan, tp bisa bikinnya juga. bumbu suka-suka, yang penting feeling aja :D
malem ini abang gue balik ke bandung, yaudahlah pasrah gue juga gamau nangisin, gue udah cukup dewasa untuk menghandle semuanya sendiri, gak ketergantungan sama abang gue gini. gak baik juga, dia gue tangisin gue jg gamau buat dia kepikiran gara-gara gue nangis juga yakan..
im mature enough to handle all of my problem. im mature enough to sleep alone, im mature enough to repairing my own computer..
next year im seventeen, it means im old enough to handling my own life..
this year i will 16. 16 almost mature, this mature means more stronger than when i was 15
hhh akhirnya buka, padahal gue gak puasa hehehe
ohyaaaa gue abisan potong poni kaya dora doooong, hasilnya besok kita lihat yaaa..
laptop gue mau dibawa abang ke bandung, kita tukeran gitu, sebenernya gue pewe sama ni laptop. enak banget dipake meskipun lemot, tp gimana ya, ya tetep aja cinta bet gue ama ini laptop hehehe
22.8.09
hari puasa pertama
udah lama ga blogging, cerita2 singkat dulu ya
tanggal 3 Agustus 2009 a boy named Ivan Sidhi Bravida, oke lho dia secara fisik juga hehehe
baikkkkkkk, sweet, romantic, pertama-tama sih gue gaada perasaan apa-apa sama dia hehe minggu pertama masih biasa-biasa aja, tapi lama kelamaan dia oke kok :-D
anyway, efek apa yang bisa bikin gue suka sama dia? idk just i like him, physically he's ok, brain? i think he's smarter than me, more mature, i think he can understand me
i know he's more experienced than me, even i usually changing boyF like changing clothes but its doesnt make me more experienced, it depends on the person who facing the problem, cant they solve it, or they just raise their hands up and say 'im give up'.
its not the man that ive been waiting for -______________-
a wrong person to be with, a wrong person to trust to and to hold on
but i think Ivan have much experience in love
kelihatan cara dia gimana treat me, at times i feel like a princess near him hehehe :p
dia orang yang berwawasan luas, hehehe hayo Ivan jangan geer ya aku tulis gini hehehe ini beneran loh ya, foto gue sama Ivan niiiiiiiiiiih :p
sayangnya dia botak, entah kenapa gue agak kurang sreg sm kurang suka sm cowo botak, tp kalo botak yang satu ini oke dehhhh hahaha :p
day by day i spend with him, hmm ok lah. tipikal orang yang singkat kalo sms, tp kalo udah ngobrol ato otp alaaaaaah bawelnyo pacar ku ini hahaha
so far so good ya taaak, hehe botak :D
sayangnya kita berbeda prinsip, ya gak perlu lah dibuka secara gamblang maksudnya apa, pasti ngerti lah..
oh ya about taekwondo, di THG mgkn lebih oke drpd wilman, tp tiap balik kerumah feel like losing somethin after tekon. apa mgkn karena diwilman kita balik malem, ya gara-gara wkt itu 73 masih dua shift, jadinya malem. tp dimalem itu, gue lebih nyaman walaupun gue srg liat yang 'oke-oke' pas latian, tp ya enjoy aja. dibanding skrg yang balik magrib. gue kangen wilman, jujur. wilman ngenalin gue from basic until now. ievolwilman :D
bbrp hari ini gue spending day with THG, love ya all :D
kejadian-kejadian wild yang ada hahaha mereka baik semua, semua udah kaya sodara-sodara aja, nice person to be with lahhhhh
sabeumnya juga semuanya oke kok, hehehe baik baik semua
anyway, im too tired to typing, so i will continue all tomorrow, i hope..
AND HAPPY FASTING ALL
tanggal 3 Agustus 2009 a boy named Ivan Sidhi Bravida, oke lho dia secara fisik juga hehehe
baikkkkkkk, sweet, romantic, pertama-tama sih gue gaada perasaan apa-apa sama dia hehe minggu pertama masih biasa-biasa aja, tapi lama kelamaan dia oke kok :-D
anyway, efek apa yang bisa bikin gue suka sama dia? idk just i like him, physically he's ok, brain? i think he's smarter than me, more mature, i think he can understand me
i know he's more experienced than me, even i usually changing boyF like changing clothes but its doesnt make me more experienced, it depends on the person who facing the problem, cant they solve it, or they just raise their hands up and say 'im give up'.
its not the man that ive been waiting for -______________-
a wrong person to be with, a wrong person to trust to and to hold on
but i think Ivan have much experience in love
kelihatan cara dia gimana treat me, at times i feel like a princess near him hehehe :p
dia orang yang berwawasan luas, hehehe hayo Ivan jangan geer ya aku tulis gini hehehe ini beneran loh ya, foto gue sama Ivan niiiiiiiiiiih :p
sayangnya dia botak, entah kenapa gue agak kurang sreg sm kurang suka sm cowo botak, tp kalo botak yang satu ini oke dehhhh hahaha :p
day by day i spend with him, hmm ok lah. tipikal orang yang singkat kalo sms, tp kalo udah ngobrol ato otp alaaaaaah bawelnyo pacar ku ini hahaha
so far so good ya taaak, hehe botak :D
sayangnya kita berbeda prinsip, ya gak perlu lah dibuka secara gamblang maksudnya apa, pasti ngerti lah..
oh ya about taekwondo, di THG mgkn lebih oke drpd wilman, tp tiap balik kerumah feel like losing somethin after tekon. apa mgkn karena diwilman kita balik malem, ya gara-gara wkt itu 73 masih dua shift, jadinya malem. tp dimalem itu, gue lebih nyaman walaupun gue srg liat yang 'oke-oke' pas latian, tp ya enjoy aja. dibanding skrg yang balik magrib. gue kangen wilman, jujur. wilman ngenalin gue from basic until now. ievolwilman :D
bbrp hari ini gue spending day with THG, love ya all :D
kejadian-kejadian wild yang ada hahaha mereka baik semua, semua udah kaya sodara-sodara aja, nice person to be with lahhhhh
sabeumnya juga semuanya oke kok, hehehe baik baik semua
anyway, im too tired to typing, so i will continue all tomorrow, i hope..
AND HAPPY FASTING ALL
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