April-Fool

kali ini kusebut dia.. April-Fool.

dia kembali dihidupku, saat April. menjadi pelangi, dan matahari diantara hujan. menjadi sebuah teka-teki masa depan. oh tentu dia bukan milikku. aku hanya kagum dan tak berniat untuk mencintanya. oh baiklah, aku mencintainya. terlalu berat kuakui, karena aku tak ingin terluka..


ketika aku pulang.. saat itulah perasaanku mulai sesak, air mata ingin luluh. tapi aku tak ingin terluka. meski luka ini terbuka kembali..

sisi lain, seorang Dia. ketika kupandang dia, ketika matahari menyambut halaman rumahnya..

aku rindu sosoknya yang bijak. meski kini telah menghiasi relung hati, kurindu. meski tak pernah berharap ia menjadi milikku..
meski kuyakin cinta ini tak terbalas, cinta ini menjadi hakiki karena tersimpan diantara reruntuhan keputus asaan..

demi April, kujelajahi masa depan.

untitled thingy

i know everything is getting worst.. its damn too flat.

and dont know why, i am kinda girl who hard to trust someone. ppl used to betray my trust, and sometimes i think someppl is not trustworthy at all.

its a fact.. look at below..

when a boy ask you 'do you love me?'it might doesnt mean he loves us too.. dont get too far with boy, bcs you might get lost in his eyes

cry its not the best problem solver, but its the best medicine when i feel dumb in boys eyes.............once a heart is breaked, it would break forever..

Im The Hero Of The Story.....

penggalan lagu Hero of The Story-nya Regina Spektor itu bener-bener apa yang gue rasa..

Im the hero of the story and dont need to be saved. Ya, gitu lah kira-kira..

pernah ngerasain berdiri dititik jenuh? dan gaktau harus kemana? jalan mana yang harus dipilih? hidup gue akhir-akhir ini bener-bener flat. gak ngerti mau nya apa..


im not that shallow, and im not that narrow minded. i just stuck. iya, udah pasrah banget sm keadaan smp gatau lagi harus gimana untuk perbaikin kesalahan.

ive been standing here for thousand times, and im no longer filled. ive been here so long wait fr a miracle. but there's no angel come. and i sat beside a tree, leaves fallin down..

just like my tears, dropped.

emptyness came along this road, i through the wind of ironic. they lemme stood up..

i callin an angel, but there's no answer. in front of me there's a lake of happiness, but i doubt to jump in. cause i afraid being wet. why? because that happiness wont last forever. im just an immortal, i got chance to change the faith but i wont do that. why? i just dont know why..

kissed by kissed came over me.. yeah they kissed me.. kissed of curse, happiness arent forever, but sadness is until the end of time. cause i never take a risk to erase that from my life.

here i am. look at me..

im just a girl, try to be visible in someone's eye..

and i dont think i can be visible, cause i just a dust in the wind..

walk along the memories, i found a sceptic memory about you.. last thing i remember..

it wont the last..