kejadian aneh =,=

kemaren malem dapet surprise night call dr seseorang yang udah lama gak kontekan, aneh sih ya menurut gue hahaha trsnya pake bilang kangen segala, oke mgkn dulu kita pernah deket tp tetep aja agak-agak rancu di gue nya hehehe

pas pagi, nyaris telat! untung mau masuk tolnya lancar, jd selamat lah saya :D

pas pulang sekolah dapet kabar yang gue gak enak banget dengernya, membuat hubungan gue dan Ivan bentrok. oke nyokapnya tau doi pacaran, selama perjalanan pulang, gue lemes banget udah kaya orang gak bertenaga, gak nyangka aja gitu

sumpah ya gue udah pasrah lemes banget
sempet nangis pula gue, udah bingung trsnya kita otp membicarakan masalah tsb, maka diputuskan lah gue sama dia VAKUM mau nangis tau gak sih yaAllah

kira-kira otp gue sama ivan gini

gue: jujur ya aku msh sayang sm kamu sm gamau pts
doi: iya aku juga sama, tp aku bingung yang
gue: ya aku juga, km mau lanjut apa putus?
doi: aku mau lanjut, tp takut ketauan
gue: ya jd gimana? kl mau lanjut ya resikonya emang gitu
doi: yaudah kita break dulu aja

shock lah gue disitu, pas bener td gue lagi manasin kolak *kalo di tv biasanya adegan shock pake ada acara gelas pecah lah, ada yang jatoh ato pecah deh pokoknya*

gue: ya terserah kamu
doi: jangan terserah aku dong
gue: binguuung akunya



setelah percakapan panjang, kita memutuskan untuk tetap melanjutkan hubungan tsb, dengan pelan-pelan dan secara halus. meskipun dia gak terima gakbisa sms dan nlf gue, you know what babyyyy i do feel the same way

tp mau gimana, gue udah pasrah banget ya bingung mau ngapain..
gue agak shock dia bilang 'maafin aku ya'

sejujurnya kamu gak pernah salah, mgkn iya aku cemburu km deket sm cewek-cewek. aku suka sepi aja, pgn sm kamu tp kamu nya selalu gak bisa..

P.S I love you huhu :""""""""""(

malem-malem gini emang enakan blogging ya, actually this post i wanna write in english. well so if my english is bad, i hope readers can understand, cause i still learning, and im a student hehehe

at 8, my mother, my brother and i went to xtrans, my brother wanna go to bandung again, he's in college now, he's a freshman. actually he's in sophomore year, but he start over again. so he now in freshman year. he bring my notebook, so now i write this all in his computer.
this night will be a quiet night, cause now im all alone, till my brotha come home. see? im strong enough, im old enough to not crying for unimportant reasons. did he know i miss him so, at times we like cat and dog, but it to proving we love each other, i try to not crying, im strong enough i know. i can through this all..

today im not fasting, you know the reason lah ya, girls' guest everymonth. actually, tomorrow i must go to school, but im lazyyyyyyyyyyyy oh every students must be lazy, tomorow IS MONDAY AND YOU KNOW WHAT I HATE MONDAY. its all because physics and deutchs, i can understand what my teacher said, but i cant reply her in deutch! why? idk! -_______-
am i too stupid or maybe i just cant? hh i hate deutch

and now ramadhan month, i try to be more patient and keep positive. i try to make this ramadhan more good than yesterday. maybe better i slept alone, but it feels like somethin lost.

and you know what, my foot is have a scar, -____-
painful -___-

feeling lonely, huhu